Just wanting to pause now and then as I go through this evening to write a post about all that’s going on here . . I am sitting here with such a longing to belong and such a hurt heart over all that has been cruelly said about me within easy earshot and with little effort to conceal the hasty judgement of those who know nothing about my life. Normally I pretend it’s not happening. I sit as far away as possible. I focus elsewhere to block out overly loud “whispers” . . . #Icanhearyouwhispering
It’s so odd to think my simple boring life could generate so much gossip. I mean, seriously!
I go to work, take care of my ASD-Amazing son, hike, explore, clean my apartment randomly and spend tons of time in Bible study.
Yup, the material of good 😃gossip
°pause to comb my wet hair°
*embarrassing happy dance cuz I got a hot shower*
Okay, I’m back . . hair combed. . chat with Matt . . made 4 vinegar waters . . put 2 in freezer to make slushies for Monday . . 2 in fridge for tomorrow before church . .
Now for Bible study . . found a really neat way to do this and it’s awesome!! brb
1/2 way through Bible study my foot itches but I can’t move it as Manicotti is all snuggled up comfy . . but.it.itches!!
Okay, Bible study done . . here’s the awesome procedure we are using:
(get into praise and worship 1st)
1) write out what you are praying for (not what you think you are supposed to pray for but what is actually on your heart)
2) write what you think God’s answer would be
3) read your Bible (at least 1 chapter, but 1 each in old and new testament is best) then write what God shows you through what you read.
My study tonight:
*Dear Lord, please help me focus on Your plan for each day.
Bless those who curse me . . heal their wounds . . open their hearts to Your love . . show me ways to show them extra kindness . . help me to grow through this.
Please help me to grow to be a good wife . . help me to learn to be more obedient to You so I can be obedient to him.
*His answer~ I will guide you. I will bless and heal them. Just love on them regardless~ they need love in abundance. Simply obey me one thing at a time.
*Psalm 119~ just keep following Me and I will take care of the rest. 😊
Well, dear ones, I am going to begin a project He asked of me weeks ago. . I kept second-guessing His request . . trying to reason out why on earth (1st mistake!!) He would have me do this when I was still trying to understand where He’s sending me? Yup, I was a hot mess of spontaneous disobedience!! Hot mess . . I don’t need to know where He’s sending or with whom . . only that it will be where He needs me and whom He needs me to be with.
🙏Sweet dreams and be blessed 😴